The Bird and the Bee - Kiss on my List

You make me want to be myself

I love you with all my heart, for what you are and for what you make me feel....

Myself!

With no mask and with all my flaws...

Reflection

Today I saw a movie „Bad Teacher“ and all they talked about (at least of most the time) was about how you look.
This movie made me think about me and how badly I want to lose weight and how difficult it is for me.

What are my principles? Why is everybody that superficial?
I developed early and when I was 12 I had a woman's body and had already gotten my first period.
All the boys were chasing me around at school and even my brother’s friends.
I had boobs and butt like a 16 years old girl and I couldn’t handle it that well.
My brother helped me a lot to understand what boys were thinking and he was a sort of my bodyguard too. I’m glad I had his help on this… J

You have to treat your body like a temple, because it is a temple. It belongs to God.
Not to the man, who you’re trying to impress, or to your friends, or to the jealous bitch that you hate... or even yourself! 

Do you look sometimes in the mirror and think: Oh God, I’m fat! ?
What brings you to think that? What are your motivations?
Do you want to become hotter or do you want to be healthy?
What is important in your life? Being superficial or original?

I’m not saying you should stop working out or something.
I’m just questioning my own principles and what my body means to me.
I’m not just saying something about the body itself, but about what appearance represents.
What does it show? It shows you? It shows a fantasy? It shows how do I like myself? (ou how do you like yourself)

Look at your reflection...

What does it show you?

Happy

I'm so happy!!!!!
I'm on track again and everything is going to be alright.
I'm gonna be back on my feet.

Give up

You fought so hard for someone, that never cared about you.

Now you just want to give it up... and let it go...

Egoism

In the world of egoism, you have even to pay for love.

Truth

Why is for everybody hard to tell the truth?
Telling the truth is hard
Knowing it is also hard
Try to somebody to tell the truth, is much harder.
That's why everybody goes the easy way..... LIE.

Back to Black

Men

Why are men afraid of commitment?
Why are they scary of?
Why do they lie?
Why must they have a backup for everything?
Why do they have to get always in trouble?
Why do they cheat, and make you jealous about other women?
Why do they have to exaggerate about everything?
They say women are much complicated... 
Is that true?


They make us sick, but we can't live without them.

Lyrics - I'd do it all again (Corinne Bailey Rae)

Ooh, you’re searching for something I know
won’t make you happy
Ooh, you’re thirsting for something I know
won’t make you happy

Ooh, you did it all again, you broke another skin
It’s hard to believe this time, hard to believe
That my heart, my heart’s an open door

You got all you came for, baby
So weary, someone to love is bigger than your pride’s worth
Is bigger than the pain you got for it hurts
And out runs all of the sadness
It’s terrifying, life, through the darkness

And I’d do it all again, I’d do it all again
I’d do it all again, I’d do it all again
You try sometimes but it won’t stop
You got my heart and my head’s lost, ooh yeah
I’ve been burning down these candles for love, for love

So weary, someone to love is bigger than your pride
Ooh, someone to love, mm, someone to love
Someone to love
Ooh, you’re searching for something I know, won’t make you happy
Ooh

Corinne Bailey Rae - I'd Do It All Again (official video)

Just the beginning...

I woke up today, with a wish to reborn again.

To be better than me.

To be better than anybody else. (Why that?)

I can't even write in english, because that's not my first language.

So here I am writing in english, because i feel like it. 

Don't ask me why.

Just, trying to escape from my ruotine. I've never write before in my entire life.

So I'm sitting here trying to put everything out of me, otherwise I'll go crazy.

And that it will be my medicine....